My Weighty Story: Week 8 and Habits

Food continues to be really hard. I’m struggling the last couple of weeks. I admit that.

Last week I went on a business trip, and because food is hard, I went by myself. I didn’t want the temptations of what other people were eating and traveling for work has historically been candy bars and fast food.

This time I packed all my own food, which made things easier, but it was still so hard not to run through the drive-thru of Carl’s Jr for a Western Bacon Cheeseburger, or get the chocolate cake at the Mobile Resturant, or drive through the Wendy’s for a frosty or any other fast food for a shake or ice cream because it was hot.

These are HABITS that hard to break. Weight loss surgery does a lot of things for us physically to help with the weight loss. One thing it doesn’t do is fix the food addiction or the habits that you have. The point is that over the next year (or two) you develop new habits for a healthier lifestyle. It’s a massive and strict tool, but if your new tummy doesn’t give you issues with what you eat, it’s so easy to still eat those bad things. The tool is great, and I would do this all over again, no questions asked, but the habits are oh so hard to break.

While on the road, I did had to “suffer” and go through Yosemite. I know rough right. I stopped at Tuolumne Meadows, which is one of my favorite places. There is just something super relaxing about the wide open area surrounded by mountains.

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This is only a quarter of the meadow, but man it’s beautiful. On this journey, I have a goal of hiking the loop around the meadow, which isn’t a small feat considering that you’re at 8,600 feet. I want to try and do it next summer, but we will see how travel goes.

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Yosemite is a beautiful place. I also stopped further up the road at the creek and sat by it for a few minutes reflecting on where I have been and how far I’ve come so far in this journey. I realize it’s only 8 weeks, but so much has changed. I’m trying to change my mindset and get used to working out on a more regular basis.

Habits and head hunger are hard though. When researching all of this, you hear a lot about head hunger. I define this as when you think you should be hungry, but when you listen to your stomach, you aren’t really. I think this ties in greatly with habits. For instance, just over the weekend I was sitting at the computer playing my computer game and I kept finding myself walking to the fridge because I thought I needed to be snacking on something while playing. I wasn’t hungry, I was just following YEARS of habits that say that because I’m sitting in front of the computer, or sitting watching TV, or in the car traveling, I should be eating, and not necessarily carrot sticks. Like I said, habits. They are hard to break.

I really think that sums up what a lot of this is. Breaking Old Habits. Not an easy thing when I’ve been doing it for 20 or 30 plus years. Many will tell you this is the easy way out. Honey, it is anything BUT. This is by far one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life.

So now onto “Weighty Matters”.

When I was on my business trip, I walked by a mirror and went… okay. I see some of the physical changes. I’m happy about this …

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I can actually see it there, but it isn’t showing on the scale. It’s is broken. I’m convinced. It’s stuck. I’m still where I was two weeks ago. What the hell.

Not to mention that I’ve been running the last two weeks and was really excited because I really thought I’d be able to run for exercise. Unfortunately, I’m not sure that is going to be an option. My back decided to blow out on me on Tuesday. In a matter of SECONDS. I usually can feel it coming, and be able to do some things to stave it off. NOPE. Not this time. Within 30 seconds, it went from oh… to OH $#^@!

I’m exploring other fitness options and am going to see about swimming a couple days a week starting next week, but we will see. I’m really bummed out and I’m not in a good mental space because of it (there are other factors contributing to that negative space as well, but I digress).

I just have to keep pushing forward, but I am going to get back to the basics with food, and find a way to up some workouts. I mean, it isn’t like I can eat less.

So while this week was an exceptional downer, I am going to TRY to keep my head up. This is a new week, and I can do this. I just gotta figure out how to break the cycle.

Writing, Wall-E Tails and My Weighty Story: When Life shows you the break peddle.

Hello everyone. I know I’ve been MAJORLY MIA lately. I want to apologize.

My back blew in massive proportions and I have been OUT since. I’ve returned to work this week, but by the time I get home, I am hurting, so I take the heavier medications they gave me for my back, and well then I’m unable to really do much else. I went to the doctor and they are referring me to a pain specialist. The good news is that they do NOT believe that its spinal and that it’s muscular. They have a couple of ideas of what is the cause, but they want the specialist to take a look at it to determine for sure.

The only bit of good news is that I have lost 12 pounds in 2 weeks. I DO NOT RECOMMEND DOING IT THE WAY I DID HOWEVER. DO NOT DO IT THE SAME WAY! ABORT! ABORT! To feel the instant difference in my clothes though was kind of amazing. However, since I’m having to be easy on the stomach in this process, I’m just going to keep with the easy foods and the healthy run.

Run… /lesigh. I did get signed up for Wharf to Wharf this year with my family, but depending on what happens with the specialist with my back, I may not be able to train or walk the event this year. I’m really worried about it. Now I do have until the end of July to get ready, but so much of it will depend on what happens. I’ll keep you updated as I find out.

MAN I really miss this community, and I hope to fully return once I know more.

With much love.

❤ Kim

Yup… Blog Changes

Time is an issue:

I am still alive and kicking.

I am still writing and editing. I’ve even gotten a couple of short stories down in rough draft form.

I’m reading too. One book that I highly recommend is:

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It’s part of a much larger series (Dark-Hunter), dark, twisted, and well… wonderful! It’s not for young audiences, but I highly suggest the read.

I am now working a full 8 hour day (where I was only working 6).

I’ve also really upped my workout schedule. One of my new co-workers is a very dedicated runner and since I’ve signed up for …

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again, I need to get ready. I want to best my time from last year, and hopefully I’ll be able to smash it into a bunch of little pieces. I’m doing alright, but I have a long way to go. The program he gave me is intense, and aggressive, but I’m doing it, and since I have a few extra weeks, I can stretch it out a little bit. I’m still concerned about overheating as I don’t “cool down” (read sweat like a pig ) like normal people do, so I’m open to ideas on how I can help combat that. Oh! and I just got some new amazing shoes.

( Newton – Aha )

 

These are amazing! They are so comfortable, and I can feel a difference in my form already! Totally worth the money. Every single penny. If you are a runner, or want to get into running, try these shoes out. (No Newton isn’t paying me for my opinion.)

oh… and I’ve started the process for obtaining my Salespersons license. It’s related to my new job, and basically it entails taking 3 classes and a state mandated exam. I want to finish the classes within 3 months and get scheduled for the exam in July. Basically that means I’m having to do lots of studying and obviously that takes a lot of time.

So yes. Time is an issue.

So down to it… blog changes

I will have to cut my blog down to just one post a week, instead of my historic three (well that is until recently). If I can do more, of course, I will, but at this time I can only commit to one post a week for now.

There will still be Wall-E Tails, Author updates, and My Weighty Story. They just won’t be a every week occurrence … for now. Maybe once my classes are done, I will be able to return to my original programing. I just can’t right now.

My love to everyone, and I will see you next week!

-Kim

My Weighty Story: FINALLY AN UPDATE!

Hello everyone.

This is going to be a really quick update.

I am LOVING my new job. I’m challenged, the people are amazing and get this … they are doing a “Biggest Loser” competition in the office! What an awesome way to stay motivated!

Well I’ve been here three weeks now … and guess what…

I’VE LOST A TOTAL OF 8 POUNDS!!!!

/ happy dance!

I’m walking during some of my lunches, and want to get to the point where I’m walking every lunch. Plus, this weekend I’ll be registering myself and the family for the Wharf to Wharf again this year. Very excited about that.

I have a goal of losing 20 pounds by my birthday, which is about the time the office biggest loser challenge finishes. I’m hoping for more, but 20 pounds I think is more than reasonable.

What are your current plans for getting the weight off for the summer?

Hope you have a wonderful weekend!

When Life Gets in the Way

I had every intention of scheduling post on Sunday for this week. So what happened? My back blew and I spent the weekend on a heating pad and doped up on pain meds.

I started my new job on Monday and first I must say that I LOVE it! I am learning so much and the people there have been amazingly warm and inviting. It is a little scarey though because it is literally into the frying pan and into the fire with these folks. First day there and I was doing stuff that very likely will sit in front of an attorney someday soon. Not that what I was doing was something I hadn’t been doing in my other job, but … It is an insane feeling to have them trust me to do a lot of what I’m doing with very little double checking. In my old job, EVERYTHING was “wordsmithed” to death by the boss man before it went out. Here they are just here do this, and send it out. That’s the end of it. It’s a huge transition in a way of thinking and between that, learning the new systems, procedures and other things, I’m completely spent by the time I get home.

Oh… And the drive home … well I went from a one hour one way drive with agriculture and lots of traffic… to well this..

10 minutes from home, and this is the worst of the traffic ( there were a whooping 6 cars in front of me) and I get to drive down through Capitola Village and see this view EVERY day on my home. (Yes, I know I have a crack in my windshield. No, I was not driving and taking pictures. I was at a complete stop when this was taken.)

Writing… well… since I’ve been so tired by the time I get home, nothing has happened at all this week. Last week I did some editing, but that really is about it. I am re-reading the last third of a book over again that I am sure in my haste to finish the audiobook in time (I returned it with less than 12 hours left on my “rental”), I missed some elements. Luckily, I was able to pick up the Kindle version of the book for only $2.00. It’s a GREAT book, and I’ll discuss it more when I do my next “What have a read” update.

In regards to my GET HEALTHY PROJECT, I have lost a few pounds in the last few weeks and the girls in the office have a BIGGEST LOSER competition going through June, so the atmosphere in the office is very uplifting and should help to keep my motivation going. Plus, I’ve taken Wall-E on a walk every day when I get home, before I even sit down, because, if my toosh hits a surface when I get home, good luck getting me back up.

Wall-E however, is very confused by this new job. He doesn’t understand why Wall-E has to stay and why Mommy is gone for such a long time during the light time.

When I get home, he has been stuck to me like glue. It’s so sweet. I do miss being able to take him to work with me, but we will adjust and everything will be fine.

I have to run. To those of you I’m following, I will try to do some catch up this weekend on your posts.

Have a great week everyone and I’ll be back once I iron out a new life schedule. (I’m really missing writing.)

XOXO

Kim

Yea, Yea, Yea. I know. I know.

Yes, I’m way off schedule. Seriously off schedule in fact.

 

Yes, Sherlock. I am.

I only really have an “excuse” for the last couple of weeks.

See I went on this interview and was so excited and nervous about it that I couldn’t think about anything else. I mean, it’s the perfect job, and the more and more I thought about it, the more I REALLY wanted it.

It’s in the field I already have some knowledge of and want to grow in.

The position itself has growth potential.

The people who I met in the office were really nice and professional.

It’s close to home so no more hour long commutes.

There really are too many positives to list.

(No, my fellow authors, it’s not getting paid to sit at my computer and write my books all day.)

However, I was so excited about how the interview went, and the possibilities this could give me, I obsessed over it. I was truly excited at the potential.

It took a few days, but I got the call back and was offered the job.

/DANCES AROUND HOOPING AND HOLLERING

WOO WOO!!!

Since then, I’ve been mentally wiped out with everything I need to do at my current job all the while trying to curb some of my excitement for the new professional adventure I’m going on.

Then, Sunday …. all the energy was fully drained from my body. I’m just exhausted by about 11:30 in the morning. Yesterday, I woke up with a head so clogged up, I couldn’t breathe out of my “nose holes” as the daughter unit calls them. Last night I ended up falling asleep on the couch a little after 7:30 and finally just got up and went to bed. I promptly slept till my alarm went off at 6:30 the next morning (45 minutes later than usual) .

So I’m obviously fighting something off.

I have been actively using the red pen, and making notes for changes in both The Five Angels trilogy and Chloe’s Ghost. Don’t worry about that.

Much love to everyone and I’ll catch you soon. I just need to get this cold gone, and I’ll be back.

XOXO

Kim

PS: I apologize for the errors in sentence structure, grammar, spelling, etc.  in this post. I’m so tired, I can hardly see straight, but wanted to give ya’ll an update.