OH MY! SERIOUSLY! DID SOMEONE BREAK THE BREAK ON THIS ROLLER COASTER I’M RIDING?
I seriously do not know which way is up right now. I feel like my whole world is spinning out of control!
I’m feeling a lot like a lost puppy right now, and pulled in so many directions. Being told, that I have to sit and wait for information and then once that information comes in I can do the next step is… well infuriating!!!!
I feel like I SHOULD Be doing something!
In the meantime, I really want to be writing, but when I have the few minutes to write, all those thoughts, go POOF!
It’s like all of a sudden the hamster that is keeping the wheel moving in my head has vanished. All that is left is the squeaky wheel and the sound of dropping water from the dispenser. Total and utter silence.
Sleep isn’t happening either. Instead I lay in bed and the hamster gets on his little wheel and decides to train for a marathon. So of course, I get back up to do something productive with it, and I just walk around aimlessly around the house, not sure what to do, because I can’t make much noise for fear of waking the house, I sit at the computer and the hamster decides to vanish again, but there isn’t anything on TV, there is just restlessness.
/BIG DEEP BREATH.
I know it is just stress, and it will all be over soon for better or for worse, but …..