Mommy says I sit funny.
Mommy hasn’t been feeling well lately, so it’s been hard to get her to take me on new adventures. Even harder for me to get her to tell you about some of them that she does take me on.
One day she took me in the car with her and we went some where new! There were beachy smells coming in from the window and I asked her to please tell me where we were going.
She wouldn’t tell me. No matter how much I woofed and woofed. She just made me sit back there in the back seat smelling all the smells coming in. It smelled like the beach, but when we got there. It wasn’t the beach.
I hadn’t been there before and it had all kinds of great smells!
There were crabs in the brush, birds to chase ( though I stayed close to Mom, I wouldn’t want her to get losted), and then we walked down a path.
There was a sign for me to stay out of one of the bushes. She said it would make us all itchy and stuff.
There was even long scary bridge for me to walk over.
I barely hesitated though because there were so many neat things to see and smell. Mom said let’s go and off I went. Mandy would be so proud of me. Mommy sure was.
Well until the next adventure.
Hugs and Licks. Hopefully it won’t be so long before I can tell you about another adventure.
PS: Today is my Daddy’s birthday, I wonder what I can do for him?
Such a vile word.
Such a small word to have so much weight is put upon it.
The dictionary defines it as an intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injury or an extreme dislike or antipathy ( loathing).
We use the word so flippantly in our lives. I hate this or I hate that.
For those of us who are trying to lose weight we say we hate our bodies for not cooperating with what we are doing. We hate our jobs. We hate shellfish because it can kill us. I hate violence.
Sure the word has some uses in our vocabulary, but are we using it too much. Is it losing it’s power?
Those who have a difference in opinion have said they hate the other side. This applies to war, politics, homosexuality, religion, abortion, gun rights … feel free to insert any hot topic you wish here, it really isn’t the point.
Even now there is a large amount of attention being put on Taylor Swift and Katy Perry. Taylor HATES Katy.
Sure there was a time in my past when I could say I truly hated someone. Then when I was working for an office supply chain many many moons ago, there was a co-worker who … to say the least, we did not get along. I, at one point, thought that I HATED her. Then I’m not sure exactly what happened, but something clicked inside me and I’ve had a different view on the word and feeling of hate.
To me hate is a term to be used when you have such fire burning loathing and distaste for someone that you want them dead. You want their existence to be wiped off the face of this earth.
Yes, you can hate violence. You want it wiped off the face of this earth. You hate bullying. You want it eradicated from our lives. I hate cancer. It killed my father. I want it vanquished from this earth. Those are more than acceptable ways to use the word hate.
However, when you hate someone, do you wish for their existence to be wiped from the face of this earth? Do you want the pain that person has caused you to be inflicted upon someone else?
Think about it. You (most likely, though not always as there are those who dislike a group based on premise alone) hate them because they have caused you some sort of intolerable pain. Do you really want to inflict that kind of pain upon someone else?
Sure that co-worker and I didn’t get along, but did I really want her dead? Sure she made my life very difficult, but I didn’t make her’s any easier either. I was young and I learned from that experience. Did I hate her though? No. I didn’t want her dead. There would be no point in that.
Yes, you can greatly dislike someone. You can detest them. You can be repulsed by their existence. But ask yourself the next time you reach for the word hate. Do you really wish that person dead?
PS: I’m sorry if this sounds preachy. I’ve heard the word a lot this week, and it made me cringe every time. Such a simple word that invokes so many feels.
I hath returned!!! (Fair warning this isn’t necessarily a warm and fuzzy post.)
I am climbing out of my pillow fort.
Well I didn’t go anywhere, I just had a silent blog for the past two weeks. Thank you to everyone who sent emails re well wishes. I didn’t reply to anyone, and I’m sorry for that. Therefore, I will answer you here.
I didn’t go on vacation, I wasn’t ill (per se), I just needed to take a couple of weeks off. Why you ask?
Because DEPRESSION SUCKS! That is why.
Something had to be put on hold.
I try very hard to stay upbeat and positive in all forms of my social media. I knew that I needed to take a break from it or I was going to say something I probably shouldn’t and break my number one golden rule and my number two rule.
Golden Rule: Keep the drama off the internets.
#2: If you don’t want the whole internet to know about it, don’t post it on the internet!
Not that there was anything or anyone specifically that was in my craw as they say, but I was at the point where someone would say hello to me, nice and cheery like, and I would probably have ripped their head off.
So what HAVE I been doing for the last couple weeks. ( If you have “liked” my Facebook page, you can see that I haven’t been completely idle. )
- Concentrated on the re-writes, additions, etc. on The Five Angels – Book 1.
- Finished imputing and doing re-writes on TFA. (Even got a few query letters out.)
- Started re-writes, editing, etc. of The Five Angels – Book 2.
- Read. (The Throne of Glass Series Again (Sarah J. Maas), Prophecy of Stones (by Mishka Jenkins), TFA (after re-writes), Four (Veronica Roth), The Golden Key (Israel Sanchez), Billy the Kid and the Vampyres (Michael Scott), now I’m reading the new book Heir of Fire (Book 3 in the Throne of Glass series by Sarah J. Mass ) )
- Slept ( well sort of )
- More crying over stupid things like the fact I got in my car one morning were I was running late only to notice I had to stop and get gas. (Yes, these are the stupid things I’ll cry over when I get like this. I even laughed at myself as I was crying because I knew how stupid it was. )
- Played with Prince Wall-E Magnifico Puppino. Seriously. Puppy kisses and “Mommy. Won’t you Plllaaay with me” are very heart warming.
- Cut out three projects (ok well technically two and I had to recut one because I messed up) for quilting / sewing. Completed one of them.
- Most importantly: Went to the doctor and got a little help.
So as you can see, a mish – mosh of things, but other than the work on TFA, not a whole lot of PRODUCTIVE work. Yes, my Get Healthy Project went on hold for a bit.
I know what my trigger is. It’s that I’m upset over my Career Options. That would be my writing career and my day to day career.
Writing Career: I know that rejection letters are part of the business and just something that I am going to have to deal with. It was just one more thing that was piling on.
Day to Day Career: While looking for another job, I keep being told I’m unhireable because I am not bilingual. It’s deflating.
That being said. That was only my trigger. There are a few other things going on in life, that I won’t discuss, but it just finally weighed me down.
I’m not giving up on my Career Options.
Finding a position closer to home is a necessity. I won’t give up and stop. However, I have a job now and that is much more than what many people can say. I love my job; it’s just that the travel and gas is eating us alive. Plus, if something happens with the daughter unit (ie: she gets sick at school) it takes me an hour to get there to pick her up. Granted I have the in laws who have said on numerous occasions that they don’t mind picking her up for us, but I don’t want to have to rely on them to do it. They have their own lives, and as her parents, we should be the ones who pick her up when she is sick. Grandparents are for fun time, not temporary babysitters.
Writing is what I love to do and I won’t give it up. I feel whole and complete doing it. There is a huge learning curve that I’m still working on learning, but there is a part of me that just … well I can’t explain it properly at the moment. Rejection letters important, and just part of the deal. It only takes one to say yes right? I’m also seriously considering trying to go back to school. I have a minor degree, but it isn’t in English and I know that going back to school to obtain my English degree would help my writing in extraordinary ways. I also refuse to give up on The Five Angels Story. It’s become a part of who I am and the story and characters speak to me in ways, other stories haven’t for me. I’ll speak more on The Five Angels later this week with an author based post.
Ok. I know this has turning into a rattle-fest. So thank you for enduring this long post and I’ll be back with a normal-ish programing.
Much love to each and every one of my readers.
I just wanted to drop you a line to let you know that the blog will be silent for a week or two.
Much love to everyone and I will see you before you know it.
As an author do you ever watch TV then see someone and scream, THAT’S HIM!
Kim what in the world are you talking about? You ask.
Casting of your characters.
When writing, some people just know exactly what a specific character looks like, because they are basing them off of a real life actor or person. They have no problems with descriptions because they just have to look at a face and describe them.
When I first started writing The Five Angels back in … 2010 (yes, it’s been that long. It actually sat for almost three years. ) I created CJ out of whole cloth. He wasn’t based off of anyone. He is just who he is for the story.
Since joining the Author community through WordPress and a few other places, I was challenged to place actors with my characters. You know, if I had the chance to hand pick the casting for the movie. What is my dream cast?
There were a few I could name right off the bat.
I mean, Julian has been and will always will be Gary Oldman.
Penelope Hephaestus has always been Felicia Day.
In the second book, I knew that Mickel was Chris Pine.I just made his hair longer.
There were some that were just no brainers.
When it came to Megan, my protagonist, and CJ ( her love interest ), it was a bit harder. I couldn’t pick just anyone! Plus in picking these characters, I had to have seen them in something else to know whether I thought they could handle the character themselves. They may have the look, but could they actually play that character?
For the moment, I have Claire Holt for Megan.
Then there was CJ. Cory James Mathewson. Just like any strong love interest in a story, what makes someone beautiful is subjective. It’s hard to find that RIGHT actor to pull him off. CJ is smart, sassy, quirky, strong, faithful. In the first book Megan describes him as 6′ 4″, dark brown hair that was just long enough that it hung down past his dark green eyes, well-built frame that she called strudy; not skinny, but not pudgy either.
We can’t all be lucky and end up with Theo James (who is the absolute perfect casting for Four in the Divergent series). I searched Pinterest, IMBD, and Googles images for months and months.
Then one night, I was watching one of my guilty pleasures, Supernatural. Sam and Dean where doing what they do, and Sam just turned to Dean and rattled off some smart ass comment with a smile. It was like I was slapped by a fish.
How could I not have seen it before.
THAT’S HIM! JARED PADALECKI IS CJ MATHEWSON!
I seriously could not believe that I hadn’t seen it before now. He’s perfect.
Now before you start thinking that somewhere subconsciously I had based CJ off of him, let me explain something to you. I started writing this book in 2010 ( I think, maybe before that. I don’t remember ), and I was really, really, REALLY late to the Supernatural party. I didn’t start watching it until about 6 months ago … on Netflix.
I didn’t even know that Jared Padalecki existed ( no I never watched Gilmore Girls ), so there is no way I could have done it even subconsciously.
Now that I have seen him as CJ, even while editing and re-reading, I can’t, at this point, imagine anyone else as him.
So, my question to you is, Have you ever watched TV or seen someone somewhere that was the embodiment of one of the main characters in your books?
For a full casting of The Five Angels, check out my Pinterest board here: The Five Angels Dream Cast
(PS: While looking for a featured image I searched “slapped by a fish” and I’m shocked that this is actually A THING. Oh BOY!)